So we have already established that orange is my official color of the summer. I mean, my complexion was made for this color so y’all are gonna get all these orange outfits until the wheels fall off. I stumbled on this set at the start of Spring and just decided to wear it. I’ve honesty been avoiding wearing this outfit because it shows all the rolls and weight gain I’ve been trying to hide. I’ve been faking the funk with my confidence level.
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It wasn’t until recently did it really hit me how much wait I gained. I was honestly stunned by how quickly I gain this weight. But honestly, it makes so much sense. Since moving back to Cincinnati, and with the amount of items on my plate, it’s been so easy to order from UberEats or DoorDash. Mostly because by the time I look up, it’s 8pm and I haven’t eaten or don’t have the energy to cook a meal that would be healthier than ordering out.
So combine my unhealthy eating and a few month hiatus from any sort of working out and here we are. Now, I have restarted my journey to get back in shape. I’m focusing on incorporating weights into my routine. However, I’ve honestly been struggle with the way I think about my body.
I’ve been using harmful language to describe my weight gain, which has been taxing on my self-esteem. It also doesn’t help that I have a closet full of clothes that don’t fit at the moment, that has added to the frustrations I feel about my body and my confidence is taking a hit.
It was a week ago that I decided to stop complaining about my body and to meet myself where I am. It would be so easy to say that I’m using positive self-talk all the time. But I’m not, and it’s hard. I’m frustrated because, with all the workouts that I’ve been incorporating, I haven’t been seeing any change. But I have to constantly remind myself that it took me a minute to get to this size. I also have been trying to tell myself that it doesn’t matter what happens with my weight because the overall goal is health.
So, how have I been managing? Well, the best way to make it is through. On days that I don’t feel my best, I fake the funk, aka fake it til you make it. I know that I’m not the only one dealing with the struggle, and I wanted to share what I’ve been going through. So, will this journey be easy? Of course not, but I’m determined, and I know that one day, my confidence will increase as I accept my body for the glorious beauty that it is.
HOW YOU DEALING WITH YOUR CONFIDENCE RIGHT NOW?
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Lack of Colour Palma Boater Hat || Zara Crop Top (similar) || Zara Skirt (similar) || NY&Company Kimono (similar) || Schutz Coral Sandals || Omi Woods Necklace || Garmin watch || The Lip Bar Bawse Lady
